Why I Heart My Media

Recently, I made plans with an acquaintance from t101 to exchange Facebook information downloads for one of the class project assignments. After downloading my information, I, being the self-conscious 20-year-old I am, looked over the entire transcript to make sure there was nothing embarassing, incriminating, etc. After all, I will be giving this information to a classmate and, as the assignment dictates, they will then study it and write a biography about me. So this was my last chance to make sure that he would be seeing and writing about only what I WANTED them to see and write about. (Let it be noted that, yes, most of what one posts on Facebook is made public, but the download included personal messages and exclusive posts never meant to be seen by the public at large, much less perused and transcribed by someone I met mere weeks ago and then turned in and read by others at that.)

Sure enough, after about half-an-hour of scanning through pages and pages of Facebook messages from months and years ago, I reached a lengthy message from February of 2010 (coincidentally, the month and year I began using Facebook). Once I saw it, I remembered everything: passion, scorn, despondency, hopelessness, rage and, the begetter of them all, love; feelings I had long ago sequestered in hopes that they may dull, or better yet, disappear altogether.

I’ve never been one to approve of such intimate communication via Facebook, but on that particular occasion, I had resorted to it simply as a last resort. My ex-lover would not answer my calls, I couldn’t fit what I wanted to say into text messages, I couldn’t wait for a letter to reach them hours away; Facebook it was.

Reading that ridiculous, desperate message from almost two years ago reminded me that I was capable of levels of passion–even through social media– that I have not experienced since. The fact that it was on Facebook did not matter anymore, if ever it did.

I hope that’s “intimate” enough. That’s why I “heart” my media.

Published by Media Love

Website dedicated to the Media Love project of Mark Deuze, Professor of Media Studies, University of Amsterdam (The Netherlands).

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