I dont think i love media.
The feeling i get when i am on vacation, disconnected from my known reality while exploring another place is something i look forward to. Those are the moments i dont think about refreshing a page to see if theres something new or stalk my ex’s new girl all the way to her first post in 2017. I get sort-of happy knowing i dont have unlimited data in another country because it leaves me no other choice than to look up from my screen. In everyday life i couldnt force myself to do it, ”regulate my screen time” or delete instagram. Its not like i haven’t tried but lets be honest it doesn’t last very long.
Theres no real way of escaping this addiction to Media because growing up with it or rather INTO it, its managed to not only create and grasp my insecurities but to soothe them at the same time. Its hard to manage or control this addiction since noone taught me how to. Everyone is just as clueless on whats healthy and what isnt; just as you start to get used to it, Media will find another way to become more intrusive leaving you unprepared – once again longing for a vacation.