The Addiction I’ll Never Try Fix

I wake up with my Media, checking my phone to see what I missed while I was sleeping, playing music when I work out in the morning and a YouTube video for when I shower. I have come to the point that I can’t do an activity without using my media, if I am walking somewhere I need to be on the phone or listening to something. Thinking about the silence makes me uncomfortable even if I know in reality it wouldn’t bother me. My life is fully dependant on my media and I don’t know if this is a good thing but I do know I don’t want to live a life where I wouldn’t be able to use it.

I can’t sleep well without a podcast playing in the background and I can’t eat without a video playing. A part of me feels like its fine, the world is changing and we are getting more connected that keeps my life more interesting. I can’t even imagine how I was able to be entertained before I discovered what I could do online. Another part of me feels like I have codependency issues with my media and that’s never healthy , but codependency would only be a problem if I suddenly lost access to all my media for a long time. I don’t see that happening so I don’t have the need to change my ways.

I think I’ve accepted the role media has and how necessary it is, I choose to conform and maybe even become Media in the future. I just hope the negative aspects of Media especially the toxic nature of social media platforms gets resolved but even if it doesn’t I’ll still use my Media.

Student Number: 13091212

Published by deuzemedialife

Mediastudies, University of Amsterdam

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