Having been in a long-distance relationship I love the fact that media connects me with the ones I love (far and near). Though I find that my reliance on media has fuelled this new anxiety in me.
Every morning I wake up at 7 am with extreme heart palpitations. The anxiety inside me only settles once I’ve checked my phone and see that all the messages, I’ve received are positive.
Checking my phone has somehow become not only a habit but a bad one. Is it connected to social anxiety? My previous experiences? Being overwhelmed in media? I have no idea. All I know is that the more I rely on media, the more anxious I become, and as a result I rely on it even more. Who knows when I’ll get to sleep in again.